Thursday, June 23, 2011

Free at Last

Today is a day of great joy for Jeff and I.  Jeff's divorce is done!!!!!  He signed on Monday and the ex signed yesterday.  He is FREE AT LAST!!  The most emotionally draining and expensive divorce in Lane Co. history is finally over.  On Fri the movers are coming to exchange "stuff" and everything else can wait until we get back. 

I am filled with happiness as I contemplate the future without the black cloud of "the divorce" hanging over our lives.  I know that our trip across America will be only the first of many journeys we will take together. 

June 21 was the second anniversary of Chuck's passing.  I started the day at the lake with Freddy, swimming and remembering all the good times Chuck and I had, and all we gave each other.  I am forever thankful that he was in my life and I miss him every day. It has been one of the biggest challenges in my life to go on without him.  I hope that everyone who reads this will take a moment to remember him and enjoy the warm memories he gave us all. 

So life continues to be an emotional roller coaster.  I remember that scene from the movie "Parenthood" where Steve Martin is sitting watching the performance of his kids that is ruined by his youngest and all of a sudden, he is on that roller coaster.  One of the life lessons I have learned is that all you can do is hang on and live each day, each moment, to the fullest.  Jeff is experiencing happiness that the divorce is final, but sadness that his marriage and the life that he knew is over.  I am happy with my life and hopeful for the future, but still mourning the losses I have experienced.  All you can do is enjoy the ride and cherish each moment.

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